Alas, it is our fate isn't it. Sometimes it is difficult to parse away that which is not ours, and find our own true nature, let alone heal the malaise of others.

That 'alternative culture' is just another camoflage. The real people who are doing what they can to seek wellness and enlightenment are not confined to a demographic. Just as the self serving and hateful are everywhere as well.

I end up saying the same thing over and over...Find the peace and stillness at the center of yourself, and then you have a reference to see if what you feel is truly yours.

You are describing my life, and I think the life of many Empaths here and else where.that I have chatted with. This site seems pretty safe, I also go to the Indigo Society which I found before this place, There it is very very real world, with many dark ones who are really only there to eat you up and mess with you mind, and try to pull you off your path. There are many good people there too, but many are not Empaths, but have other gifts and abilities, and some are just wannabees. The problem there, the manager/owner does not have the gonads to kick off the trouble makers, so everyone suffers. He also get paid for the hits and ads, so why I guess do anything as long as the members count stays up.


I grew up in the 50s and 60s, talk about growing up in the dark ages. Today I am lucky to have a empathic wife, could not say that 15 years ago, was married then to an abusive controller who thought I was evil and wicked, and that there was no way i could know and understand the things I did. I was aways this way, but during this time, I started to develop and be more open about my abilities which were developing.

For me, I find that many if not most do not want to know the truth and they don't like you seeing them for what they really are, they don't want to hear truths of light, which might force to have to make changes. You have to understand, that for most people ,what they see, hear and feel stops with what they can see, hear and touch, but for us, that is not the limit, and they don't like changes, it is scary for most.

It is often hard to separate what I am feeling, from others until it is too late. I have classed myself as hypersensitive morphic empath. Not only do I sense others feelings as my own, I can take on their attitudes until they are out of my presence. This morning was a mess, I woke feeling like crap, with my own problems, but I guess some where my wife, she told me she could not sleep much last night and had a terrible headache. So I guess that added to the my pains and already feeling super horny because it has been a week, and with my wife feeling ill. Then her son who lives outside temporarily in her trailer. Barges in this morning and wants to take a shower before going to college, but my wife is in the bathroom and just gotten out and needs to get ready, so she can go to work, she is a teacher.

It was too much with everything going on, and words were said, and I got my two cents in too. I told him why doesn't he take a shower in the evening, instead of in the mornings, and told me, he lived here too. But in my frame of mind, he is a lazy leaching A hole, to is a opportunist. My logic tells me, this is my home, and no matter how old you are, there are still parents and rules and if you don't like it, move out. My wife works hard, and doesn't need him in her face, while she is trying to get to work, to help pay the bills, so we don't loose our cars and home. But I try to deal with the situation, because he is now trying to better himself by getting and education and a job in the future.

I find that the hardest thing about being a hypersensitive empath, is being hypertensive, not only feeling but my body and minds reaction is greater. I feel pain and joy to a much greater degree, as some empaths do, something on the order of like many to 10 times more, so I get so much easily overwhelmed, stressed and whacked out.

Everything affects me, even the moon and etc, besides others and I guess things I am not aware of. The full moon, hard to go to sleep and stay asleep, last quarter moon, makes me more stressed and horny for some reason, New moon does weird things to me too. But I find the greater the pain, the greater the joy and pleasure, I guess it is a package deal.

Growing up as a youth, I could never figure out why others caused me so much pain, and why they seemed to have so much control over me in forcing me to do what they wanted. Now I know they were in my head, I understand more now why I stayed more to myself, and was very selective about my freinds and who I hung out with. But even then, I felt like a Alien from space who had somehow been dropped here on this earth by mistake.

David

I grew up a loner myself. When I questioned our church at age 12 as to why some of my dreams would come true or that I would know that someone was ill .They told me that I was being foolish and only someone dark would have those thoughts.
My parents were aware of my abilities and I was allowed to go on my own spiritual path. I had very few friends growing up because most thought me weird or into occult,whatever. lol
I have to admit I would often entertain myself by others reactions when the things I would tell them came true. I can think of someone and have them contact me. I was warned to move out of Northridge,Cal. one year before the 94 quake rocked that area. I know when weather is going to be bad. I know by feelings if friends or family are in trouble,ill or just need to talk.
These are things I've lived with all my life and thankfully my husband was open to my weirdness from the start and after 29 yrs of marriage is quite used to my abilties. Though it still weirds him out when I tell him what he's thinking. lol
The only times in my life when I have felt Un-safe or gone through some bad spots through life are when I did Not Listen to those voices,feelings and dreams. Now I am very open to my Empathic abilities and I relie on them to be with me on my journey.

thanks I am grateful to be a part of this this tribe

I just lost a very close friend because she didn't want to hear the Truth. It was painful for us both. Very painful. She was to be the Godmother of my unborn child and within two days of this conversation transpiring, I picked up on the fact that she's in more of a partying phase in her Life, despite being a fantastic Mom. She ended up bringing her kids to a home where it's not totally safe, then drank with some girlfriends there till 5am without one Sober Adult around and 5 little kids, one being a 3 month old of the woman who's home this was in. I'm 100% not Kosher with this since she was to be my daughters Godmother. I had to have the conversation with her, with as little judgment as possible. I kept referring the issue back to me and how I grew up being hurt because of alcohol and drugs. She absolutely could not handle the conversation. Kept going back to the "How Dare you Judge Me" instead of realizing that she's so much better than that. She is. She's just in a phase but nevertheless, I can't in good faith leave my daughter to her right now. This conversation pretty much ended our friendship because her ego was so hurt and she wouldn't accept that I had a right to feel anything about her parenting, even tho she could end up mothering my daughter. Additionally, she knew she was making improper concessions that she wouldn't normally make b/c she's desperate for a Life right now. (she's 34 yr old a single mom w a 4 yr old and a 7 year old) She just hasn't figured that part out yet. She's in the Raw Feeling state of "I didn't do anything wrong" vs "Why do I feel so shitty about this??"

It was such a hard situation because I intrinsically knew she would not be able to handle the situation no matter how delicately I expressed how I felt, but I could not keep quiet because my daughter will dictate my choices first and foremost. I knew my friend would feel she did something wrong, but would not know internally how to reconcile this emotion at this point, because it came from an outside source. She will reconcile it eventually and will not always be angry with me for sharing how I felt about this... but it's going to take some real time. Having the courage to express what I felt regardless of an outcome that I knew would hurt us both, was one of the most difficult things I've done. So much so that I ended up in the hospital the next day because of the turmoil I felt over hurting a friend's feelings. I knew I wasn't wrong.. but I hurt because she was hurt and I could feel it and it manifested into a huge physical stress.

For the most part I always keep my feelings inside because mostly that's where they belong. But because this was such a delicate situation, my integrity as a person who is responsible for another life took precedence over me not wanting to 'hurt' another by sharing a truth. A Truth which she values as well, but doesn't quite understand yet. That's a ballsy thing to say, but I *feel* it from her, *know* it. It's a tough situation b/c I understand totally that she's lonely. But I have to represent my family first and always.

You're very right about most people not wanting to hear the Truth. It's applicable on many many levels... There are Truth's yet that I'm not ready for.. I *know* them.. but just don't want to accept them yet. Growing isn't easy and we are the ones who have to choose at what point we break through a wall or the wall breaks us. There's a lot of stagnation out there.. I'm coming out of a phase recently myself and it hurts at times but I recognize and appreciate the opportunity.

K

I'll echo the chorus and say that this is a very familiar feeling to me, too. People often don't want to know that they are misrepresenting themselves - which took me a few "shoot the messenger" encounters to figure out. The closer you strike to truth, the more people will defend if they also feel unsafe by your perception. I also feel unsafe, because of this spear-poking and dismissal of intuition-based assessments. I have come to rely heavily on expressing the empath side through critical analysis (i.e. psychologically) because it is so much more excepted. This is a big chore, one I'm sure a lot of us do to navigate the logical waters. Maybe one day empathy will be more accepted as something real!