I identify with your statement about others seeming to have more control over you, David. I struggled with that for years and still have to be cautious of it. My favorite quote describing empaths is "Empath - An empath is somebody who so completely identifies with the nature of another that they assume that nature." Whitley Strieber.
I think of it as being a blank slate or a mirror. I will reflect others emotions or thoughts as if they are my own. But I will also reflect others expectations of me, they can write on my blank slate what they expect me to be like, how they expect me to respond in situations etc.
It has taken me a long hard road to realise and understand that, and I am glad that there are sites like this around to provide a place for people to come and find support and share and grow.
Have a great day
All the best, :-) Anita

Marie

Interesting, I mostly stay at home too, being a disabled Veteran lends well for me to do that. I have thought about it some, but I find that crowds over power me. But at least in that, it comes to me more like a blurr, and no one person is fronting me. I can only know who I am when at home alone, and where I can relax and be myself.

But at the same time, I most often enjoy the excitement and good feelings I get from people at restaurants, Church, family get to gathers, or even helping someone find some thing they need at market or hardware store. The pain and evil darkness is out there, but so is the joy of experiencing others joy and excitement. I find to find I experience more good then bad when out from my home, but I have to take it in small doses a couple times a week. I find most people out shopping and eating are up beat.

I find the pain comes from my step sons and their friends, and others like them. Those who are unhappy with themselves, and frustrated and depressed over life, which they feel has dealt them a bad blow, and everyone owes them something.

Take a look at online ????, on Empath, it was just started yesterday and I taped into some someone or thing with some bad mojo, not sure who it was. On Indigo Society I got used to that kind of crap, but this is the first time it has happened here on Empath Tribe. I always thought my home was a safe place, until I went to Indigo Society site, then I realized I could tap into someones feelings and mood and they me. So I had to learn to put of shields and cut energy emotional cords.

I was used to scanning someones body to find what was wrong with their heath, but not their emotions and ??? at a distance, only close up. Though I have been aware for a long time, I have been like a antenna taking all of it in, but like a radio, only aware of what I was tuned to.

I seen to have the spiritual gift of discernment besides being hypersensitive and Empathic. I just don't feel emoticons as my own, but I get direction and impressions as well. I remember my X wife in Oregon, excited that a new couple had moved in from CA, and they had opened a Antique shop. She met them a couple times, at their shop and was elated about them. When I first stepped into the shop, my first impression was hippie types, and drugs and not good people. Later we found out, they indeed manufactured and sold drugs, and fixed up broken antiques and sold them as not ever having been damage, in A-1 condition.

For awhile my step son had a girl friend who to me was like a black hole, it was like sucked all of the light and goodness where ever she went. After awhile I got used to it, but when she was for awhile, and she first came back, there it was. Like a bad smell or load noise, we get used to it and don't notice it as much,

I am uneasy when around my wifes sons and their friends, and people like them. I can't relax until they are out of my sphere, and especially if in my home. I feel bad feeling like this about my wifes sons, but she sort of understands, they don't exactly make her happy either, but they do not affect her like they do me. If they are just coming in to use the bathroom or get a bit to eat, I am sort of ok, but when they stay and watch TV with us, I get more and more uncomfortable the longer they stay. I feel bad about it, I have not control over what I feel.

I find they are amplified, like there are no resistors to turn the volume down, that others seem to have, it seems you maybe that way too. I am aware of feeling and emotions in others, that they are not even aware of on a strong conscience level. It is like I feel things 10 times louder then others do. Great when you are feeling Joy and Excitement or sexual, but when it is fear, anger, hate, depression it can be overload before you realize it.

The hard part is always being aware of others influencing you with their feelings, emotions and thoughts. I don't hear others thoughts,but what they think and feel gives me impressions, so I think in a like manner.

I find when I encounter someone, I immediately am attracted, repulsed, with generally most are neutral to attracted to some degree. I find that the more I am repulsed by someone, the more they are the opposite of myself. We seem to be far more sensitive to things that could be dangerous.

I often post late, early in the morning, at 1 to 3 a.m. I get tired so easily, and fall asleep earlier in the evening in front of the TV to space out and relax. Then wake up to take my herbs for sleep, and feed the cats and etc waiting for the relaxing herbs to kick in, for even trying to go to bed. I often worry I will say bad things while half asleep, because I sometimes fall asleep in front of the computer before making it to bed.

Precog or what ever, I find there are a lot of things tied into our Sensitive Empathic abilities, which I cannot not explain, and they maybe just more dormant or undeveloped parts of who we are.

thanks for sharing, I often find when I share, I realize new things about myself. Often it seems dead here, and not much goes on.

David

Most of those I know now, trust what I say. But my ex wife and others years ago, thought what I could do, EVIL. They thought it was impossible for me to do it, other wise. Sad, they sounded just like those old narrow minded unbelievers in the Bible, when anyone came along with new ideas, truths, and abilities. I find a few believe, many do not, sadly for them.

I have not do past lives, don't believe in re-incarnation. But I have read peoples genetic history. We carry the feelings and happens of our ancestors on our genetic makeup; science has actually verified that today. It does affect us today, we are basically sum total of our ancestors, and we add to it and pass it along if we have children.

Being LDS/Mormon, as a people they seem to understand it better over all then much of society, I only have to explain it is part of the gift of discernment, and they understand, we all inherit different spiritual gifts and talents ,to help ourselves and those we come in contact with. Here this is true in CA, but where I lived in Eastern Oregon, some years ago, I was looked at as someone who was not right, treading in evil practices.

A sensitive empath, greater pain and sorrow,but greater joy and passion, a two edge sword.

i am glad you enjoyed his discomfort


why not?

he probably did not feel your enjoyment

most people FEEL LITTLE consciously

we the sponges must have some perks too

think of it as playfulness IT IS FUNNY