Way More Open These Days

topic posted Fri, November 7, 2008 - 2:34 PM by  Katrina
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Haven't been here in awhile and I see there are still familiar faces in this crowd : )

I'm pregnant and emotionally everywhere. I'm wayyyy more susceptible to feeling other people but it's not always in a positive way. Can't have it that way all the time right?!

My issue is that I make decisions without understanding them sometimes but they are almost always made for the positive. Even when it seems that I'm doing something odd. Simple and big things. Like for instance, I knew if I didn't get the Roast on the stove this morning, that my kids wouldn't be here to enjoy the meal. Sure enough, I didn't get it on in time and their Dad picked them up 90 minutes early today. I was so angry with myself over not listening. The biggest issue is that I'm getting upset at other people too when they don't listen. Which is CRAZINESS. I'm not normally that person. But I can see things that I don't understand at the time but which always reveal themselves soon after I speak with someone or make a decision in my heart.

I cannot be upset with another person for not understanding me or listening. But it's been hard when the outcome ends up being negative for me. I'm speaking of people that I'm close with right now and how their decisions sometimes will effect me.

I'm really just venting right now. I hate that half the time I can't put what I'm feeling into words that another person or even I will understand. All I can do is make the decision I know is the way I'm supposed to move.

That's it from me. Not looking for pity, just needed to vent. Thanks for listening : )

K
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Katrina
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  • Re: Way More Open These Days

    Fri, November 7, 2008 - 2:39 PM
    I know that you are taking into consideration that you are pregnant, which is good since that will cause all kinds of peculiarities. Also consider that when stressed, it is much harder to keep a clear head and communicate well.

    I know this is off-point, but I am not seeing past threads on any tribes right now ~ no pages 2, 3, 4, 5, etc. Is it just my problem, or is tribe being wonky again?
    • Re: Way More Open These Days

      Fri, November 7, 2008 - 5:08 PM
      Pregnancy can indeed be a difficult, almost dis-eased time. There's a reason my daughter is an only child. I am glad I have her, difficult as it was.
      I had every untreatable symtom...fatigue, allergies, nausea all the time, moodiness. I realized I was way limited, and just accepted it. I would break things down to one basic task each day, like the laundry on tues, the grocery shopping on weds, vacuum on thurs. Maybe you just have to sit down and plan out your life a little more so you have less to stress about as it unfolds.
      good luck & blessings
    • Re: Way More Open These Days

      Fri, November 7, 2008 - 5:13 PM
      Please now disregard the last portion of my post. I was able to find a highly capable IT glitch surgeon on the Astrology tribe who solved what turned out to be MY problem.

      Many thanks.
  • Re: Way More Open These Days

    Fri, November 7, 2008 - 7:43 PM
    Hormones are defineately connected with 'ability'.
    I have found that at certain times of the month I spike on my sensitivity and accuracy in in my predictive dreams.
    My pregancy opened me up big time to the 'psi' and I have been only getting more aware ever since.
    Good luck girl and roll with the punches and use techniques to help keep things at an even 'keel'.
    If you want spacifics ask me or anyone else here.
    Take care.
    • Re: Way More Open These Days

      Fri, November 7, 2008 - 7:47 PM
      Some esoteric schools of thought put the whole realm of psi in the endocrine system. I am a little skeptical about that, although I would definitely say that it is probably the "seat" of the matter. So do keep in mind that those kinds of changes will be significant for you now.
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    Re: Way More Open These Days

    Mon, November 10, 2008 - 7:40 PM
    Hi Katrina and congratulations mate :D

    I can really relate to what you're saying about knowing I need to do or not do something without at the time knowing the why of it....only to find out later...gggrrrrr.

    An example comes to mind. My husband wanted to create a flat area down the back in a clearing in our little bit of rainforest for Taiji practise. We discussed the cost and practicality and looks of this and that surface, and decided on a concrete pad. He'd have to barrow the concrete down the narrow pathway to the spot, after mixing it in a portable concrete mixer some distance away. I really had a bad feeling about this project, but I just couldn't come up with any logical reason not to go ahead. In fact there appeared only to be advantages connected to creating this area.

    He is still recovering all these months and months later from the injuries he caused himself from carting all that concrete! At the time it seemed like, you know, just muscle soreness from doing a bit heavier work than usual...

    Also little things....I was in part of the rainforest doing some trimming and chucked the long-handled loppers down well out of my way as I continued with other work. I got the urgent thought "Move the loppers!" I thought to myself, they're way over there. "You'll hurt yourself" So over there I went and stood them up, points down, further away still. I went back to the spot where I was working and forgot all about moving the loppers as I was engrossed in what I was doing. A short while later I tripped and fell down the bank a little way....I landed flat on my tummy where I had originally left the loppers chucked down pointy bits up!

    I don't blame you for feeling upset when an outcome involving someone else's actions affects you, when you knew they would be unwise to do whatever it was! I've felt that way too. Damn thing is it's probably their lesson to learn, and being close to them while they do that can be wearing at the very least sometimes, lol. I laugh because I've really had to keep a sense of humour about the whole thing or I'd tear my hair out or something. ;)

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      Re: Way More Open These Days

      Mon, November 10, 2008 - 7:51 PM
      Just another thought...

      Where my husband and I are concerned I have thought probably one of the major reason's he attracted a person like me into his life was so I could give him these little and not so little warnings about stuff now and then. But then, there's a fine line between playing the role one feels one is meant to play, and stepping over the line to where I'm in danger of undermining his trust in his own sense of what is or isn't a wise move, and, balancing that against the fact that our lives are so entwined that what he does affects my life too.

      I just take it moment to moment and hope for the best!
      • Re: Way More Open These Days

        Sat, November 15, 2008 - 7:56 PM
        Hi Jaz!!!

        Good to hear from you. So you're still around these parts.

        Listening is so important but sometimes, like you eluded too, knowing which voice to listen to is vital in non interference but also vital for our own road to follow. I really enjoyed reading about your experiences. Thanks for sharing them!

        On a different note, this baby will be my girl : ) Have my three boys and never expected to have another child. I was never sick with the boys and have been so sick with her. Go figure, eh?!

        How's your world?

        Kat
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          Re: Way More Open These Days

          Sun, November 16, 2008 - 1:16 PM
          Yup, my world's ticking along, I suspect, in just the way is best for me. Though I don't necessarily always see it that way! :)

          I don't get why, but when I was preggers with each of my boys it really, from distant memory (lol) anyway, didn't have any noticeable affect on my emotions or sensitivity. A couple of close friends I had at the time never even mentioned the emotional impact of their pregnancy's. People I knew who had been or were pregnant were likely to complain about a sore back or having to go to the loo all the time, or morning sickness....I was warned I might feel a bit blue for a few days after the birth, and I didn't. I remember waiting to feel sad, lol.

          Amazing when you consider that, now, 30 years later, the wierd and maybe not always wonderful emotional impact of pregnancy is taken as a given. And the complications arising out of post partum depression are widely known...

          Maybe it was a karmic thing because later in life the boys created absolute havoc for me and my husband at every opportunity!! Really, they made it their mission in life, it's taken years to get over the mainly nightmare experience of raising them. Now at 30 and 28 they are even a bit surprised at themselves, lol.

          Lovely to be having a girl...she'll have her hands full with 3 brothers, or maybe they'll have theirs full, lol. Either way your cup is certainly overflowing, good luck!

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