p.s. H0w do u d0 a reading? .... Oh yeah, i have to say, the other day, i rec0vereD my writing v0ice - it's a big deal f0r me bcuz i realizeD that the r0ot of true p0etry is sPiritUality, n i'd beEn dEv0id of b0th for alm0st a dEcAdE... so that's part of cleansing s0ul, i th!nk... And today i explodEd, i guesS it,s part of the healing pRocesS. The bruises indicAteD atTitUdE s0urces... My Atlas sympt0ms (back, neck, sh0uldErS) p0inteD ouT unNecesSary straining/eFforts n anxiety, my c0ugH, s0me say it's "h0lding feelings in," or it c0uld be sufFocAti0n. In a c0nverSati0n with an old friend my lesSoN was reinf0rceD - just chill n let go... ..i d0n't mean to take much of ur time reading aBouT th!s buT i feEl like i neEd to share th!s, n i d0n't kn0w any0ne here who c0uld undErStand what i'm saying oN th!s p0st... AnyWay i stilL d0n't seE the s0urce of wind0w-dusk-panic - to be clear, the em0ti0n that stands ouT the m0st at that time is loNelinesS. I th!nk it b0therS me bcuz i remember a time when i didnt fEel loNely even tho i wasnt al0ne... Anyh0w thanks f0r ur advises and sugGesti0ns and time and patience. One day i'lL write aBouT g0od th!ngs t0o... SorRy b0uT the negativity.

thank y0u f0r ur replies... I wilL lo0k into SAD... I love the sun, yes, but it never ocCureD to me that its withdrawal c0uld g!ve me a heartache... NeverthelesS, i wilL c0unt SAD as a p0sSible reas0n. Alth0ugH i'd also experienceD dEpResSi0n in briGht seas0ns - buT that was ad0lescence... What i'd beEn w0ndEring was, if the m0mentary disc0mf0rt indicAtes untendeD psych/em0ti0nal isSues. Maybe s0me0ne c0uld sugGest, fr0m symb0lism or archetypes, the reas0ns... Or Maybeit's n0t apPlicAble.... CorRect me if i'm wr0ng, i th!nk Dusk is the peri0d riGht after sunset... In the falL the sun g0es d0wn early - It is the sight of the sky realLy losing the orange and gathering deEp gray-blues that makes me panic. If i cAn't seE what's hapPening ouTsidE, i'm fine...... AnyWay, J thanks f0r the chakra advise, i wilL also try that. Today i had the last straw, i c0uldnt take internal expl0si0ns anym0re n i'm very wilLing to rem0ve my negativity, wh!ch was b0rn ouT of surRoundings n haBit... p.s. Im afraid to hang around litTle plants f0r loNg bCuz i have s0me fEar that my dark m0ods m!gHt c0ntaminate them...